MY COMEBACK

2010....to 2019... it is a long time...but still not enough....

2010,I decided to bring my career life to hault for my family which I were trying to build.

Nine years were quite long and unending....lots of energy went...raising kids…..Fulfilling my family duties and trying to make society and family believe that I AM COMMITTED TO FAMILY AS I AM TO MY CAREER.

It’s a tough life of a girl in Marwari community who wants to pursue her career after her marriage. A conception is built around the girl, that she will not be committed towards family if she pursues her career, will not take care of the family, will escape her duties etc, etc...

Though the girls are allowed to study as much they want and parents are quite "Open minded" till it’s their daughter, but suddenly become orthodox and conventional as it fall down to Bahu or Daughter in law. They want a homely girl or the girl to quit their career and become a homemaker once married as making ends meet is not an issue.

But it becomes so difficult for a girl to been born and brought in one set of mindset, where there is no restriction or bar for anything and then have to live her second part of life in a very orthodox environment.

My nine years were full of  such emotional sway,  sometimes where I were proud of my decision to quit, sometimes I were regretting the decision. And later I understood it all depends on yourself, people in society are meant to gossip on whatever you do. So you need to be firm and know what you want from life and move forward with focus and determination. If things go right you become an inspiration for society and if things go wrong you become a matter of gossip.

These Nine years have been full of experiences sweet and sour, good and bad, and years of self exploration and exploration of family's and society mindset, Which I will be sharing in my coming write ups slowly.

But I am also happy that I can make a comeback for myself. I can again get back to living for  myself too as an individual, along with being a family member. And to tell you, living to ones satisfaction is very necessary to keep other in family happy; if you are unhappy you can never make others happy. Though it took  Nine long years to realize,but I am happy I realized.